Where to begin…

I’m not really sure where to start, honestly. But I think what’s important for me to note is that I’m here, creating space. Making room for myself to continue learning and growing. To be creative and keep fulfilling my many passions. And all for myself. I constantly remind myself that it isn’t selfish to think of myself first. I decided to think of myself first in 2018, when I walked away from a toxic relationship and marriage with my daughter’s father.

That moment forever changed me, and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. The most impactful life decision I’ve ever made. But it was a moment of reckoning for me. I had to stop and take an honest look at my own happiness. Am I important? Do I matter? Am I valued enough to believe I deserve better? I wasn’t sure of the answers to those questions, but I knew deep down, I felt so alone. I didn’t feel right. So I left, and never looked back.

This was one of my biggest tower moments in life. It broke me inside and out. And then the questioning kicked in — did I make the right choice? Is this the right decision for Siena? And a ton of other things ran through my mind. Even though I was terrified to be alone with a child, and my world was shattered, I knew one thing — the only way to go is up. This feeling and dark place I was in couldn’t last forever.

Life is different. It has changed SO MUCH for the better, and on my terms. The last few years of my life have been a whirlwind of crazy, but I’m somehow still here, feeling liberated and happy. There’s so much to unpack, which will happen here, in time. But my moment of clarity in leaving my marriage brought me back to me — the one who matters most. I was once in a place of doing everything for everyone else, except me.

It’s been a journey to come to a point of realization that I MATTER. And that I need to care for myself first so I can care for others, including my daughter. That I need to live my truth, first. That’s it. It really is that simple, yet we love to over complicate our lives out of fear.

Making tough decisions isn’t easy. But most of the time when we get to that point, it’s necessary. It’s hard when we can’t see the other side, but we all have the right to choose.

So here’s where she chooses herself and her journey begins…

xoxo

She’s All About Her

It’s been a journey to come to a point of realization that I MATTER.

Attended my 4th WORDAFUL Event!